There's This Guy

I never believed in love at first sight. I never understand why people say they were already in love with a person they just met. How could you say you love a person you barely know? How could you tell if he or she is the "one" if it's just their name you know about them? How could you act like you know them if you only have just interacted through social networks?

Some people tell it's not love. It's rather infatuation. But how do we really know the difference between the two? I'm not here to tell you how because even I didn't really know much about these things. And would you still even bother when you are already in a state of feeling ecstatic emotions towards someone? The thing is, my mind has been rioting about this. It's not the kind of thought that you could rationalize. It's more than that because it involves a lot of our emotions. There could be an endless answers when it comes to this kinds of matter, unless you experience it yourself.

And so, there's this guy... There's this guy I only once met.

You know that feeling when you dreamed a good dream that when you wake up, you couldn't remember what really happened in that dream? You just know it's beautiful. That's the same feeling I had when I met this guy. It was in a very unexpected and awkward way. But "that moment" was like reliving those good dream. You may not always remember every detail about it, but you know deep down it's beautiful.

I'm not saying I already fell in love with that guy. I know, it's not love at first sight.

But how do you explain that "connection" I felt? It's as if there was this tiny little string that was instantly attached to him and me. That in just a blink of an eye, you already felt connected. I thought maybe it was just a simple attraction. But I know better than that.

It has been a month already but I couldn't stop thinking about it. I just recently discovered that he was somewhat part of my past. I don't know, a sign maybe? But that's another thing I don't usually believe in. I'm not even sure if he still remembers me. Did he feel the same way?

This broad concept of love /infatuation still amazes me. I'm no expert on this and only have a little experience to share but I can tell... it's magical. This is my hopeless-romantic side speaking.

Beautiful boy, wherever you are...